Everyone pls say hello to the Ds !
OMGGGG.

Totallllllly distracting plsss.
I want to die.
Mondayyy is making me so OMGGG.
I canot stop looking at - during TRNG.
OMG WTF.
I am so deadddd.
I think about - when i have nothing to do.
I am really dead.

Omgggg.
I saw Jerald ytd.
Omgggg looooks as goood as ever !
I wannna die , can totally melt.
OMGGG.
I suck la whalauuuu.

Trng tmr , i am totally gonna embarrass myself, I wanna die :/

Menses pls go away, LOVE.

& I realise, I relate well to heem wei just that sometimes she can be a little proud but i feel more comfortable relating to her than shoes , sometimes i realyl dont know like .... all of us have been classmates for a year already but lik everyone's nonsense is only starting to come out now & alissa is omggg , srsly.WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER.

I am so tiredddd ):

I dont know if I'm looking forward to tmr actually , maybe the sun. HAHAHAH !

Because this whole 1 weeek was so fucking annoying, i think i made the biggest mistake to liek work with my friends cause they totaalllly , sad to say , SUCK.Shuyi has been such a disappointment. Srslly , taking so long to finish up her fucking work and all , just ot acceptable , I mean i never said we all couldn play right ? But they already did the FIRST weeek , no fucking balance , no fucking responsibiity , no fucking urgency , ok fine , their life i shoudl bother right, but hello its our fucking project okay , u wana get F then get it on your own for your fucking written test la , its a damn group effort eh. Fucking make so noiling maddddddddddd , I will pray tonihgt. Sooooooooooo angry. & when she isint gona send a document then say la , akid gonna send or what , SRSLY WHAT IS WITH HER.

Nice company i must say but rlly , when its comes to standing by your friend or whatever, whaaaa srsly , i miss IJ friends.Poly friends are people who ake me feel liek they only want to have fun. Hate that.Rllly.

Should have believe wei when she talked about micro.

I swear , that SW mgt , I WILL not do with her or akid.
God knows what they've been saying but i dun care either. It doesnt really matter and i dun feel bad for pushin for the report.THEY WERE TAKING THEIR FUCKING TIME. u have trng , SO DO I . now , GO AND DIE.

And screw the track club rooom la , its a fucking sports club thing man ,
LOSERS.

Thurdays are rockersss , yknow ICCM is quite boring but HAH not realllly also.
Nvmmm.

I think Heem Wei hasevil invtentions whatsoeverrrrrr & its really getting on my nerves yknow.

i am so anoyed with heeem wei b cos i think sheis up to no gooooood.
Make use of people , whateverrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Think she is one of us ? no wayyy.

I dun really want to blog on fourmessyfingers.
Feeels so violatedddd.
I didnt see HZ today.
SAD luhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
BYE

Todayyyy I found out why angela's being liek that and i feel a little upset and ashamned althoguht it reallt isint my fault bu t at the same time i feel annoyed with her cos i mean if she's chose to go with a new clique then why does eh ahave to be like this to us , i think the black faces were uncalled for.

All these politics , everyone has a complicated mind.
Char is a nice girl , I know what shaza said id true but whether it applies to me, I dont know at all.It so hard to know sometimes.Harder to even accept.What to do ?

Suddenly just feel like sitting beside zy.
Maybe that way I'll feeel better.
Maybe , or not.

I dont know if i shoudl tell shoes.Dont know how she'd react to it , will she be even more upset ? angry ? confused ?

On a seperate note , I noticed this girl , Hui Ze recently , she looks liek debbie just much much cuterrrr. I cant stop looking at ther & I go all red when we talk about herrrr.
Omgggg.Eyeeeecandy okayyyyy.Srslyyy hot bung.
OMGGGG

And I haven seeen malcom around , where has he gone to ?
DAMN.This goood looking yr one guy I met at kayak trng.
HAHA , quite nice tooo , i think ?

The days with shoes and nathan have been relatively goooood.

Saw Tricia and Qy todayyy.
Omggg missed them & whaaa dman happy to see them please.Dk why today i was so in a rush to talk to qyyy and liek totally not go whooo hoo over tricia.HAHAHAHA .
Phrase overrr caus enow there huize !

I'm contemplating if I shoudl msg zy ,
I want to ,
but why should I ?

Where has all my setermination gone ?
I keep trying to escapeeee.
Its wronggg.
Help , I want to get back my determination.
I hate this feeeeling.

Btw , I mustttt prove to lionel teo I will stay in kayak & prove then i can bring back something for nyp.

HUI ZEEEE AND MALCOME !!!! THE NEW ECs

Today I told Jill how I felt about elane's words and what it actualyl led tooo.
The feeling is really sucky & I'm starting to hate her, so much for friendship eh.
WTF u're ot even fit to be my friend so be gone I hate you.

Anyway , I'm glad I spoke to jill cause she really made me feel better & knowing that she was so angry with elaine just shows that i mean this friendship is really genuine and whats even more amazing is that we haven seens each other in at least a year but the friendship has been gng on for quite sometime already.

grant me strength pls.

tell me why that crazy girls just cant seem to leave me alone ?
Its dman fucking annnoying.

Zy msged last sat to say she got the letter & thanked me for it.
She went on to say that she realy miss me & it really made my heart feeel heavy.
Like yknow its how I miss her too but its sometthing we cant bring back anymore even if we wanted to ?It was sad that she almost cried while reading the letter.Maybe that shows that yknow maybe, well maybe she still cares about hefriendship just that we cant bring it back to where it was but rather just let it live on in our hearts.Its also saddening that she's geting hurt in love cos I really dont want her to do & probably sad that I wasnt there was she was down but yknow at the same time , maybe thepresence of others did a better job than i did.yknowwww. Anyway , the whole thing ended well with me saying we'll probably go back to our own lives but she willalwya be in my heart & viceversa, it brought comfort I must say.
Ahhh , now sch's gonna start in 5 days & I feeel saddened that the yr 3's wont be arond anymore & she's gng away tooo. she's only gonnna be insch for , about 2 months ? ahhh. dont go ?
Ah well , good opportunity for her.I just want her to be happppy & I;m sure i'l be happy for her tooo (:

Its already mid weeek but i still thnk about her almost everysay and maybe it was beter if i didnt send the letter , but yknowwww actually everything turned out well just my recurrent felings.

Well we spoke on msn today due to some sch stuff.
We happen to be in the same LTC for NE but WTF there's only one lessonfor NE , yknowhow saddened i am ? Just totally crashed my hopes & proves even more how my hapines is alwyas short lived.Idk but i really hope that this sem i have left iwth her, i'll bump into her more cos its only in sch that i get to se her and yknowwwwww she;sgng and i just wannnna see her for the last bittttt.

Ahh , I'm gonna misss her a whole lot, well not liek i dont now but yknow when yknow someone is further away ... yeah probably a psychologial thing but ya !

OMGGG
I Totally dreamt of apple ytd and that we held hands andddd aiyooo it was just sweeeet k !
(:

Today , Apple called & it was a unknown number so I picked up carefully.

M: Hello ?
A: Quack quack
M:Oh its you, HAHA.
A: Are you currently holding a job now ?
M:No?Why?
A: wana work ?
M:where ?
A: at bobbies la
M: dont want la, work as what ?
A: Serving lor
M:Dont want la , o fat how to squeezing in betweeen ?
A: Shit you la *laughs*

and then i was nice to say a very nice byee ! HEEEE
I can play it over in my head kkkk
Whao i rock !

This way, that way.

Xinni : I didnt know you still come here.HAHA.I'll never get to sing infront of a taxi driver again.Heh heh!

I dont know.

I dont think so ?

I dont want.

Say byebye!

I'm quite boreddddd now.

Waiting for time to pass till I go do something elseeeeee.

Quite shocking ,

Lucky it was nothingg , I've a weak heart.

-.-

OMGGGGGG !
Duccccccckie talked to me ytd , teeeeheeee
No actually I talked to him first then i stopped and then he asked if i was working.
OMGGGG.
Ok Dont getcarried away now ,
BUTTT i was happpppy ! (:

Gooooodbye folks.

Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is ,
Everything's going to be alright

Finally, after a very long time I get to speak to Jill.
I'm so happy for her just like how she was happy for me last yr.
It was really nice catching up with her.
So little time, tooo much to say !
I want to seee her soooon.
Its been tooooo long ):

Four years down the road I'm gonna look back & recal how I spent & I know I wont regret !
It was realllly goood.
Memorable I would say !
Tooo much laughter, my stomach hurt !
Picture overloadddddd.
I got burnt too , clap hands.
" you sit here la, later we come and collect you"
WHAHAHAAH !
I wish I was born on 29 Feb, its way too coool.

I srsly have to start packing.
I am so tireddd.
I woke up reallly today !
But I dont regret it one bit !
Shaggg I would say.
Freak, my eyebags ):

Omg , this conversation is srsly getting hilarious.
HAHAHA !
I want to die.
'Bi-sexuals'
WHAHAHAH !
Omgggg.

With you , with you , with you.

Today was a relatively ok day I think ?
Rather mundane.

Hated the fact that I had to wake up really early to go where ?
Yes to sch AGAINNN.
Omg so sick of t alreadyI want to die.

So I came home & went for dental.
Hmm.
Thenn ,
I came home to slack & sleeep & then went for a run , felt goood.
I didnt feel tired but then freak airconint hegym was F cold.
I tell you that guy is maddd.

Came back & blahblah.
Thoguht more about apple today.
So lame, wth is wrong with me.
Why on earth do I even like apple ?
Omggg.
Sucker fish.
Will I miss apple in cambodia ?

HAHA
then i talked to hairless online & it was not bad ! hahah .
Cos she is hairless.
Cant believe I used to cursh her.
Omggg maybe I still do ?
fickled bitch.

Omggg , orange.
That is impossible , untouchable.
apppple ):

APPLE is an asshole.

I think i still liek apple but theen i think i better not ? bc os like ... it is so impossible.
Fat shit ERGGHHHH

I saw apple and everyone else today !
TEEE HEEE HEEE !
But then i didnt get to liek eye cntact but then i walked up and down like 3 times ! (:
Good enough ! (:
HHAAHAH !

Ok , stopp.

I think it wnt happen ):

Wasting my time.
Oh i hate jerome and heemwei was being a bitch today.
ROAR

Ytd was a really goood day.
School was alright.
Errr ,
Then we played floorball with the yr 3s.
As in , teamed with them.
Heee !

Was suposed to play forward with quacky but then played defence in the end.
Ehhh , it was good !
Coments were goood tooo !
Even apple commented !
I think its what mattered most!
HEE HEEE HEEE !
HAIRPEEE!

Ehhh , then we played more and even though we lost , it was a god game cos I'm very proud of all of us , SW as a whole & it was a memorable event , us yr1s teaming with the yr3s.Not to mention the y2 umpires/organisers were fuckers , ke long liek MADDDD.
Grosss okay.

Anyway !
It was fun !

Showered , dinered with them then home ! (:
I'm sad their leaving, I mean , Apple ! HHAHAAHAH

Oh oh !
Char was equally happpy too ! (:

And i gguess today was good day !

Esp the part where i ahd to borrow te book , and then she asked who i was looing for and i said no ne and then she asked - ' is that your ggf ' hahaha ! What a loser.
Must have been damn embarrassing for - but whatever.
HAAH
Grinssssss all over.
Tee heee !


Thats all aboutt oday and
Thaipusamtotallycuased a smelly jam !
ROAR !

I need to start studying !

AND Ytd !
its tmr la ducky !
HO HO HO

The past few days ,
Well , this past whole week was great !
Like I've been hearing , talking and everything to apple !
OmGGG !
And then orange TEE HEE HEE !
But i like apple more !
(:

And toufu is errr , whatever
hahah a
I liked ytd's convo besttttt !

yes dumbo ? Quack ! (:

My days have beeen SWEEET !
On fri , 11/1 !
I got to met orange ! & apple also called cos of something.
Teeeheee heee !
& liek he asked me to choose since I thoguht it was nicer !
HAHA !
And like some monday , I called apple but he wasnt in sch so he msged to say he had a stif neck !
& So i said it was okay !
When I went online , he talked to me even though he was appearing offline !
HAHAHA
YAY !

Then tues was (:
Cos , Apple called manymany times !
& like he said I was guai cos i dun enertain calls during lecutre time.
HAHAH !

Anyway , I was happy to see apple !
and yeah !
Came online and he talked to me again !
YAY !!!
I wanna wann wannna save all the comversations !
HAHAHA
SUCKERRRR !
I dunno but i have alot of fun talking to him.
HAHAH !

AND TODAYYY !
Like I saw apple before gng to lecture & I know for sure he amde eye contact first !
HAHH
YAY !!!!
YAY !!!!
Then sticks tongue out !
HAHAH !
MELTTTTTT !

and the ' hurr .. ' msg !
HAHAH

ok ok !
Isg was RETARDED !
I saw LAM XINNNI ! OMG !
She is so retarded !

shouldn have commited to the floorball game cos I am so dead tmrrrr ! OMGG WTF !

Gonna do my tutorial now !
BYEBYE !
I love appple MANY !

Today ended well !
Cos got to see and talk to two HEE HEEES !

Ehhh , thennnn , but she was damn unrasonable la , whatever burn u girl , burn.

ok ok byebye !

apple orange , both i like !

Bad day.

Screwed stats test.
Stupidly helped to do something that wasnt mine.
Fuckkkk , and well , no gratitude right.
Ya , stupid as ever.

- was screaming her head off in the canteen like it was my problem.
ERGH, pls , life's never fair.
Quit grumbling.

Saw - , i guess it was fated but i duno why she gave me that hug.
Overly excited.
Well , I missed her too but ...
Oh man , I hate thinkning about the past.
I want her back as a friend - duh but i guess no ?

A very much delayed lunch but whatever.
I was appologetic about being late for hte match but well ,
Dissapointment.
It always sets in doesnt it ?

I shoudl learn to control my emotions.
Esp at a point liek this.
Omgg , what am I doing ?
But I think i'm feeling this way cause yknow.
Yeahh.

The ride home was a long and disgusting one.
Almost died , cried cos it really was disgusting.
Hated it , Hated the thoguht that she wasnt gng home with us.
ERGH

Hated everything.
Wished Charlene was there though.
& I wished we didnt become this close.

So I came home & puked like madddd ?
& The feling was just so terrible.
Looks like both nikki & I had a bad day.

So all the replies I had were from char , nikki and tiff.
& Obviously I was hoping - would msg and yeah she did.
I was happy , I think ?
But then I thought of - & Idkkk.
Confused shit ass mind.
Errrrrr ,
I wonder if it'll be awkard to see her in sch.
Ergggh.

I guess its times liek these that I think about -.
CRAPPPPP.

I think i'm heading back to the c way .
Omgggg.